Monday, July 8, 2013
Elena I used to somewhat be okay with. But then later on she turned into this whiny, idiotic pathetic excuse for a person. She started to fall in love with Damon and Caroline didn't understand. Why would she? Caroline's only had bad experiences with Damon. Damon, after all fed on her when she was human and played with her like she was his little toy. And then, when Caroline became a vampire he initially wanted to kill her off. He didn't per Elena's request, but that doesn't stop him from being a total jackass to her. Calling her "vampire barbie" and what not. Elena, however, doesn't get that. She's in love with Damon because he treats her like she's Divine. But she doesn't get that he could care less about anybody else she supposedly cares about. And then she gets mad when people like Caroline don't see Damon the way she does. Again, why should Caroline?
I haven't seen the last 7 episodes; however, the last one I saw Elena turned into quite the bitch. Her brother died and Damon convinced her to turn off her humanity.
Oh yeah, if I didn't mention this before, everybody in Elena's life has died trying to save her.
Anyhow, she turns off her humanity and becomes an even bigger bitch to Caroline than she was when she was whiny, kidnapping Caroline's mom and then trying to kill Caroline. She says she doesn't care. But why would she try to kill Caroline then? If she didn't care, why bother? Also, she became quite jealous when she saw her ex-love Stefan and Caroline dancing together. What's that about?
So at the moment, I wish someone would stake her already.
The one thing Elena's got going for her is the fact that she's gorgeous. And we owe that to Nina Dobrev. Nina Dobrev is beautiful and stunning. She's got such a pretty face and these nice long limbs. Long arms. Long legs. She's also got a flat stomach. I know, I sound creepy. But really, it's jealousy.
This is her in her Seventeen magazine photoshoot from a couple of years ago. She's gorgeous, right?
I know, she runs and she does yoga. She's not necessarily sitting on the couch blogging her woes.
I should get up, get moving. Too bad I've got a broken foot. Thus, I should stop eating so much. Too bad I'm unorganized in that realm.
I need a wake up call damn it!!!!
I need to do something.
Nina Dobrev is only in a long line of Vampire Diaries leading ladies that I envy.
Next up: Caroline Forbes/Candice Accola.
Wednesday, June 26, 2013
And it doesn't help that I've been watching a lot of Veronica Mars. Kristen Bell is so tiny.
I bought these clothes from Delia's last winter. I fit into one and then...I didn't anymore. I can't fit into any now. They're really tiny. But they're so cute! Will my body get small enough to wear them?
I also accidentally bought this shirt in the small size when I meant to buy it in large. It clings to my skin like nobody's business, so naturally, I don't wear it because I don't want to draw anymore attention to me than I do. I really want to fit into it, because its a Stereophonics shirt, which is a band I really love, and I paid a lot of money for it. So I don't want to waste it. But according to the spark people site if, and that is if I manage to get it together enough to lose weight, It will take me until spring of next year to get down to 145. And that would still be four pounds overweight for my height! What the hell? I don't know what I'm going to do...
Thursday, June 20, 2013
I've been eating too much. As always. I need to drink more water. I barely drink any water. It's bad. Water is quenching and it is good for me, yet I don't drink it. Why don't I do anything that's good for me? I just eat all the time. It's mechanical. I'm so used to eating that I eat all the time. I don't know how to train my brain to stop.
Also, I found a new girl crush. Kirsten Dunst. I've been watching Bachelorette on a loop. She's gorgeous. Her character, Regan, was my favorite in Bachelorette. There's a line in the movie where the guys of the movie describe her character and they say: "You know how there are serial killers and then there's Hannibal Lecter?...There are girls, and then there's Regan." I want someone to describe me like that. I want to be tough enough to be described like that. Yet, I'm moreso frazzled and weak than Lecterish. I need to toughen up.
Also, I've been watching Bring It On. You can really see Kirsten Dunst's skinnyness in that movie. Look.
She was 18 when she made that movie. And I'm 22! I should look like that. But I don't.
My jeans are tighter now. My other jeans are torn in the inner thigh area. My red jeans are super tight around my thighs. Not good looks. I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT. I just don't know how to train my brain to STOP EATING.
And I don't even want to go to visit my baby nephew and niece who live only an hour away from me because I'm so overweight I'm ashamed. I'm afraid my family's going to say something. I hate to be stereotypical, but it is an Indian thing to comment on someone's weight. Even though my family in LA is more polite than that, I know that they'll still be thinking it. "She's gained so much weight...she needs to control her diet..." That just kills me.
What do I do????
Friday, May 17, 2013
That's what my dad and I talked about last night.
I need to have structure in my life.
Yet, here I am. Drinking lemonade---filled with sugar. And posting on my blog. Oh yeah, and watching Friends. The "Take the Rachel" Episode. Ross' wedding part 2. Why does Emily let the wedding go on? I would have stopped it. I wouldn't have trusted anyone who said another woman's name, especially a woman who he used to be in love with.
Anyhow, I need to work on my research file. And not eat all the time or drink lemonade, making the excuse that I can drink it because it's there and I'm the only one who drinks lemonade. Not good.
What is wrong with me??? I want to be skinny. Bethany Joy Lenz skinny. Nina Dobrev skinny. Hilarie Burton skinny. Grace Potter skinny. Sophia Bush skinny. You get the picture...
I mean look at this:
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